What you have and what you dont?

Sometimes you ask yourself questions that don't have answers, and sometimes you ask yourself questions that you just don't know the answer to. Why is it that the only time you can't seem to answer a question is that you find it to be the time when there isn't a real answer? It seems that the most troubling things in life seem to not really have answers or real solutions. You just have to battle through and realize that one day things will be better. What makes everything better? Is it hope, love, peace, dignity, or something greater than that? Don't get me wrong, i'm not searching for some answer to a question or answer to a situation. Just contemplating some things that are on my mind. You can look at someone on the street or on the road or just behind you in the supermarket check out aisle and wonder where that person has been or how they got to where they are now or what their life is like. Those are the questions that I mean, ones that probably shouldn't ever be answered, mostly because they are completely irrelevant to our lives. You just have to hope that they are happy where they are and where they are heading.
Things are changing in my life lately, and for the better. I'm still hoping that everything goes well with work and continues to do so, because I am about to embark on a life changing journey. That is one thing I don't question, mainly because it is with the person I love with all my heart and soul. I have always wanted a family, and kids and all that comes with that. There are lots of things that you question or contemplate in life, and that is one that I didn't need to "think twice about" because the woman I am with is the one who I will be with forever, and there is nothing more to share with just one person as you can with what the both of you create out of love. Sharing that joy with the person who you care about more than anything else in this world is something that almost seems as it would be overpowering. I just hope that I can handle the emotions of being a father, I know I can be a good dad, its just that there are various ranges of feelings that come and not being blown over by the storm is all I can ask for. Some people will say, I don't want kids - I have all I need or want. Well, what if something isn't "missing" but just isn't there? I've been told that you don't have kids to fill a void or an emptiness, that once you have kids, your emptiness is gone because all you care about is being the best parent you can be for that child. I will strive to do that, be the best that I can be and always learn from when I mess up, because you will of course at some point make mistakes. All I know is that I want to spend the rest of my life raising my child(ren) the best that I can with the woman I love. There are lots of things that we go through in life that make us who we are and sometimes I wonder how the things we go through don't destroy us or make us unable to be what we want to be. She is someone who will never let anything get in the way of getting or being what she wants and I love her dearly for that.

"I don't know how you do what you do. I'm so in love with you. It just keeps getting better. I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side, forever and forever. Every little thing you do, baby I'm amazed by you."