Auf Wiedersehen

Off to Germany today!!!! I cant wait to be over there! I havent seen my schatz in 12days. That seems like such a long time, but it has gone by faster than expected. That isnt because I dont miss her, because I do. I want to be back with her and being happy! This post comes with a somewhat heavy hearted message. I may be coming back alone :( I know that it may be the best thing for her to stay over there, howver, I hope she will come back. I can only hope she will. This time going over there, it doesnt seem like im going over there, but that im just visting her. I dont know why, but it feels weird. I have had nervous thoughts and strange feelings the last couple days, and I hope they get better. I know she loves me more than anything and I love her more than words can describe. We will be happy. That is how it has to be. She is my world and has made a huge difference in my life and I can only hope to have done the same. Who knows what this life has in store for Sarah and I in the future. We may live here, we may live in Germany in a couple years. I will have to buckle down and learn German of course. I was planning on doing that anyway as our kids will grow up learning both English and German from the beginning. I just want her to be happy and thats all I will do is make that come true because she has made me happier than I deserve to be. That may seem like I am downplaying what I deserve, but how many people would fly 6 time zones and thousands of miles and leave their family and freinds behind to be with you? She is an amazing person and I love her dearly for that. So, I am off to do some things and then get ready to go to the airport. Ich liebe dich so sehr mein schatz! Bis Bald!