It's about time...

That something go our way, I just found out that a large account could go my way soon. I don't want to get too excited too early and end up disappointed. I am excited just to have the chance to be a part of a deal this big. It would get the gorilla off my back (no longer is it just a monkey), and let us breath again. I would like to know what that is like. Stress, especially financial, will do funny (not so funny really) things to you. It makes simple life decisions and turns them into a side by side comparison - for example; do I need to get my hair cut or do I need to get lunch today? Those are choices you should not have to make. I made a comment to myself yesterday, yes you heard me right, that we have been struggling for so long it seems like the ordinary thing - that is to struggle. I realized that is the wrong way to live, almost accepting defeat without even playing the game. A wise saying - that all good things come to those who wait. That is so true, because we have been waiting for quite some time. I have been extremely patient, and I will continue to be so. For the sake of, well, just fairness, it has to change soon. I am 29, and still have to rely on others and that isn't right. I don't mean to always go down this road when I vent, however, it is just enough. I am going to see to it that we land this account and the other large one (the law firm) and get everyone at work (upper management - besides AJ/KJ) off my back. That is all, I will make it happen. Failure at this point is NOT an option.

On a lighter note, we have visitors from Germany this week! A good friend from hers and her husband is already here in NY since Wednesday. They will be here Monday and staying for a little over a week. We will be going to do some sightseeing and touristy stuff with them. She has never been here to the States, so that's good. I am so glad for her to have some visitors, it is as close as it gets to going over to Germany - having Germany come here. I know things are tight and we can't afford to go over there yet, but I have a feeling that if things go well over the next couple months - we will be in December! But, shhh.... I don't want to ruin the surprise, lol. :)

'til next time....