Progress

Most of the country is feeling the effects of the economy. There are a lot of people out of a job, home and they have no hope for the near future. It makes me feel lucky to have all of those things even though times are still tough. I feel like no matter what, I have the skills to make it in whatever I do, its just making it happen or having it happen. 9 times out of 10 it won't just happen for you, you have to make it happen. For the last 4 1/2 months, things have been slow at work, not with my work but with the results of it. I have been out there working and getting things done, it just hasn't happened yet. I have been working on a large account for about 7 months now and it may come to be that it is a large deal that could happen next month. This is coupled with another very large deal with one of my customers. If both happened then we would be doing just fine, but I am not counting on either one just yet. I am doing everything I can to make them happen, not waiting for them to. I have learned that in sales, it isn't about how many sales you make or how often you make them; it is about how often you make the large sale. Those are the ones that make you not sweat every month about making quota or having a commission check each week. I haven't been so successful landing these big sales in the past, but I believe that with a good mindset and hard work they will come, and soon! That is because we need it, now more than ever. I need to get this gorilla off my back (as opposed to the normal monkey), it gets annoying and borderline depressing to not have money. And I don't mean lots of money, just money to do the normal things in life, buy groceries, pet food, some clothes once in a while - things like that. I know that if I focus I can achieve what I need to and want to. When things are tough, I tend to not talk too much about it and I apologize for that. I tend to shut down and not be as happy-go-lucky as I usually am. When you have stress every time something comes up that we need, even if it is $20 for gas or a haircut or contacts, and I can't afford it I just push it off or ignore it. That isn't the best way to handle it, but I have no other way to deal with it. I just have to get out of this situation financially and I know it will happen. I just need to turn the recent progress into results. I have to have faith that it will happen, and sooner rather than later. I know that it is hard on the ones closest to me, and I know that it stresses our relationships. That is the main thing that gets to me, I seem to always be worried about it more than everyone else, but I just don't show it as much. That is my nature, to keep things in. I regret that. I have to change that, progress - right? Then results, one day it will be better - let's just hope that it comes soon.