Off I go again...

Well, I leave this afternoon for a week to go to Ohio. I was there back in July for the first of the training classes with Océ. The last time I went it was right before Sarah flew to Germany. Things were a little more stressful then with me being gone for a whole week. It was one extra day then, as it is only four days this time around. I was confident things would go well then and I am still that way now. I just don't want to go up there, it is going to be ass cold, and I am not looking forward to it. The job has been up and down the last couple months, and I have been struggling with what I really want to do. I can truly see potential with Océ and I don't want to leave or quit before it happens. I have a couple really big deals that I am working on right now. There are more in the works for the end of 2009. I just think that if I give it the time it needs, that it will work out. I believe that, and I just want the results sooner than later. Maybe I need to start focusing on today more so than tomorrow and next week. I am tired of being the one always chasing the carrot and never getting it. I want to be the one dangling the carrot again. That is where I need to be, and if I can get there with Océ or not remains to be seen. I hope so, otherwise I have to find something else soon. Well, this blog has f'd up and it is hard to keep typing in apparently font 56 or something. Well, here is to hopefully having a good week and everything being ok here while i'm gone. It is only a week, but I will miss my home for even after a day or two.